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Sunday, February 2, 2020

Papa



"Papa" she says.

I am pretty sure she has a good vocabulary for her age, but it is hard to know for certain, since I do not have others similarly situated to stand next to her and chat for comparison. And also because most words are incomplete and it takes the wisdom of a parent to interpret these sounds.

But "papa" has a clarity to it that is like no other word I have ever heard. And with those two small syllables everything else disappears.

"Papa" she says and it is impossible for me to do everything I would wish for her.

"Papa" she says and she knows she is fiercely protected.

"Papa" she says and she knows she is deeply loved.

"Papa" she says and she knows that not a day will go by when I will not be there by her side.

"Papa" she says and she knows that I will pick her up as long as there is strength in my body and capacity in my mind.

"Papa" she says and I imagine all the greatness that resides within her.

"Papa" she says and I can't imagine a life without her.

"Papa" she says and I promise all the promises I have.

"Papa" she says and I think, I know, that no other four letters have ever been so important.

"Papa" she says and suddenly there are no other words in the world.

And to all the other "papas", you know exactly what I mean. For you have experienced that jolt of electricity, that surge of passion, that love emanating from the deepest part of your soul that you didn't fully recognize still resided within you. You have been forever altered by one word from one little human being still trying to figure out what it is all about.

For me, whatever other vocabulary follows in the days and years to come from this grandchild of mine, it can never match the sound that has now emerged.

"Papa" she says.

"Papa."


16 comments:

Anonymous said...

You just described the indescribable!!


EA

Anonymous said...

NANA!!!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️


PM

Anonymous said...

Just beautiful!!!!!

GK

Anonymous said...

You made me cry.
Lois

Anonymous said...

Beautifully said!

CL

Unknown said...

How well you describe the heartfelt bliss of being a grandparent...love all what you write.

Anonymous said...

You put it so beautifully that although I'm a mamma, the words still "resonated" throughout my soul.

I wish you could send this to Kobe Bryant's wife and daughters. This is an expression of love in its purest and most innocent form; that of a papa to his little girl. Im sure these words would reassure them of the beautiful love their father had for them. A love that neither time or distance can ever erase.

Once again, your words convey a beautiful simplicty.

Thank you

JAM

Anonymous said...

This is the most beautiful letter that I have ever written , thank you for writing down my words and thoughts.
I have saved this and will be sending it to her when she is old enough to appreciate it.

David

Anonymous said...

Tears now rolling down my eyes! Papa and or Nana!😍😍

HK

Anonymous said...

Love this.

DH

Alex said...
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Anonymous said...

Sweet.

FCL

Anonymous said...

To which I say, of course.

Lou
8A

Anonymous said...

Beautifully written. I can cry thinking of my grandchildren’s not knowing their papa and how much he would of loved them

SF

NAT DONSON said...

Hi ROBERT. I HAVE PLAGIARIZED THIS ONE FOR M INFANT MENTAL HEALTH STUDENTS. NAT DONSON

Anonymous said...

so adorable :)

SC